HnG? Hate and Get off???

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I was being neglected...

I join HnG since form one... Still remember the first year. So good and so fun.

I can say Hur Beng year was the most epic year for me... I had so much fun throughout that whole year in HnG...

Till now, everything seems to be different, changing little by little... till I think: am I so bad?

Agm... For me it is just like a nightmare... The top 4s were told for their respective pose are permanent before agm... What the hell is that? no democratic?? How come during agm still got vote? thought Kae Yng said dont have... A MESS.

Seriously, I was already very fed up with all that already...

The outcome for president is HW... :o

I dont like his attitude, in some sort of way that he was very hard to his own thoughts. He is just --------- (stop talking about him)--------------

Why I prefer FH because he changed already. I know. Last years, he was still those people who kept want win although he knew he wrong. Last time, he was just.... CRAP!! No use saying last time.... But what now, he is willing to accept what people tell him. He is more formal and reasonable in his way of doing job. I am saying the truth.

Although he cant reach to the president pose, but the vice president must be him. No doubt.

Haizzz...All that are just only about the system problem.

Come back to me.

I really dont know what I should say... The feeling is shit!!

All friends join HnG same time with me, all hook up with pose, but I am the only one who being left out!!

Thought this year add in a new pose, auditor, so I might still got hope, who knows... it just fly away like that... such a shame for me... only me. Who can feel what I am feeling now?

Haizzzz....

insomniac.

I am too confuse with too many things that happen recently...

Everything end up like this... Whose fault? mine?? or them?

Think there wouldnt be any specific answer for me...

Haizz... What can I do except sad?

Pass everyday hopefully?

I hope I can do that. but for now, dont think so......

Let's keep them seal and continue ACTING IN LIFE.

Recently...

This world is too unfair.

A lot things happened.

The matter that I feel the most depress is about the AGM thingy...

Let's see the choir club...

I join choir since form 3. Remember that time, Hui Xin and Jia Zhen also take in choir same time as me. We all involved in the state competition. We practised and practised and finally got second runner up. It was fun and indeed, I experienced a lot of new things...

Still remember I was suck in singing during that time... However, choir can change a person from nobody to somebody.

Haha, it was a disguise to think about it, I used to kept teasing by my friends, especially Fook Hong. He used to tease me, about many things that I cant really remember now... Therefore, I was always low self-esteem when knowing many of friends were so expert in singing... lol.

Thinking back that time, I was just a loser, a traditional student who know only about study.

After playing a simple role in choir, I know how to sing well, enhance my music sense. Think everything was good so far. However, till now, only I know...

The truth of me in other seniors eyes...

Unfortunately, I got nothing in my year of AGM. I was not calling for interview. I was wondering that time, however I just kept quiet because they said there would be another round of intake. Who knows, here came the AGM so fast. lOl..........

Then, through some ways I know the reasons why they judged me like that...

Here are the idiotic reasons.

They said I was not outstanding enough

They said I was busy in HnG.

They said they didn't see my effort in choir

They said choir should have a certain quota for selective candidates.

The reasons are not reasonable. sobs... because of that then kick me away.

Firstly, I am not as talented as Jia Zhen which got fully enveloped music background. How outstanding should I be?? I did my best what they ordered... I have no idea what they want actually... ==

Secondly, I was busy in HnG?? Doesnt it an excuse. Hui Xin even busier than me. She busy in prefect, ed-board and her outside project. What about me, just because HnG?? What is that man!!

Then, the most angry is that they said I didnt effort for choir... I can say, they are utterly blind and stupid. Honestly, who cares how much I put in for CHS idol. Indeed only myself. The list mentioned I was the Head of Discipline. Actually I can be anything as well. Since Hui Xin and Daniel were confronting some communication problem, I was the HR already. She fed up, then I helped her. I went to find judgers together with them. I helped to coordinate the juniors as well. I gave suggestion to Hui Xin, I reminded her as well. Then, of course the discipline also... During the big day "Finale" I was at the back stage, arranged CDs for participants... Ahh... the CDs, I am the one who collect from them as well. Booking for room and hall, I went together with Hui Xin also.... What I did are not effort then they called?? :/

Finally come to the last part.... The quota is totally a shit... Said what let juniors have more chances to involved, didnt they think the consequences?? Why dont they fill in all form 4s first? form 4 is the last year. Why they want waste the chance for form 4s, they should know juniors still got chances but not for form 4s like us... ... do the quota really help??

Haizzz....

Can see that I am the victim... I did not do any harm to choir, not a single!! I did not harm any seniors... why they want to neglect me??

NO IDEA... in forlorn, depress...

That are not all... Still got HnG... Another headache....

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